Monday, December 31, 2012

Zipping up 2012

I'm at the office...alone.

I'm sure there is no one in the building besides me and the security guards. I'm trying to sum up this year...and when I think about it, thank the Almighty, its been a good one.

I don't know if its just me, but it seems like New Year is on steroids or something. Maybe everyone is just glad they didn't die on the 21st of December. Hahahaha. 

I've learned a lot about myself. Some things I'd rather not know, but I'm glad I do. 

One of the things I've learned is that relationships is like The Equation. Some times the variables on their own, look good. You think they will work out, but once you put it in the equation, it just doesn't. No matter which way you try. And sometimes...the variables, look horrible. They are not going to work out, you know it. But then you put it in the equation and it works. I'm no longer looking for the variable that looks perfect. Now, I'm looking for the one that in an equation will work out. 

Another is that, I'm a deep thinker, a talker, a questioner. I have a deep desire to live life to the fullest. And even when I try to go with the flow, I don't. Cause I think that you have to LIVE life, not just exist.  But that doesn't fall in line with the greater scheme of things. And that's fine. I've come to accept my place in society. I'll pretend to be in charge, I'll talk, think, dream, wonder, know....and then realise that none of it is the way I thought it would be. And ultimately, I will be grateful for the fact that I am not in charge. 

But the most important lesson I've learned is the value of praying for something and then doing your utmost to make it happen. Until the sweat runs down your cheek, until you can't breath any more, until you feel like you have to stop, you go further than that and you find what you are looking for.

Considering that for Muslims, this is like the 3rd new years (the first new years is a spiritual one where your book of life is opened and what is destined for the next year will be written down, the second is the islamic new year and this the third) I take no stock in the importance of the date. Only a marker that says...last chance ;)  

So...Happy New Year to everyone...whether first or third...lets make the new years resolutions count. Mine is to banish Laziness to the wastelands. 



Grumpy me said...

'you have to LIVE life, not just exist.. I like that, Lady-T. A year ago I got very ill. I'm grateful to have survived and know now what carpe diem means.

Happy New Year!

Lady T said...

I'm glad you survived too :D

Thanks, Happy New Year to you too!