*sniff* Change. The world is rank with it.

I don’t know what it is, whether it’s the Mayan predication, or the fact that I’m changing jobs, but I feel change in the air.

Good or bad, only time will tell.  

I’m scared, because I don’t want the change to change who I am in a bad way. I’m all for good change. The bad change, you don’t see coming and it leaves you recovering for many years.  COD’s don’t deal well with change. We try and keep things as normal and stable as possible.

But can growth ever come from stable? Don’t think so.

So here we are, two days before the Mayan prediction. I don’t think the world is going to end, but I do think it’s going to change. I think it has been changing for several years now, but we use logic and science and past experiences as excuses. “This must have happened before, so its normal”. And we forget to take a moment and see what is happening around us and the speed at which it is happening.

And there is nothing that we can do to stop it. Or is it? Can a prophecy be delayed or prevented from happening? If it can’t than what is the point of the prophecy? But we learn from Angel, that whether we try and change the prophecy or not, it still comes true. So the lesson is???

To try anyway. We need to try and be as good and kind as we can be. We need to try and be better than what we are. Because after all, once we die our judgement day begins. That is the end of our world.  

I really wish the anxiety would go away though. Whatever is going to happen must just happen.  "I don't want to be in a battle. But waiting on the edge of one I can't escape is even worse".

And yes, I can relate just about anything to Lord of the Rings.