I’ve come to an understanding about destiny. It’s simple. It’s none of your business.
What matters are the choices we make, the people we are and who we affect. The grand master plan is not for us to understand. All we have to know is that there is a greater purpose for everything and we are just a small cog in a very big machine. But that doesn’t mean that anything we do, is done in isolation.
It is complex and complicated and it is not for us to understand. Just to know that something like this exists. The problem is, when you go through tough times, you sit and wonder ‘could I have changed it?’; ‘is this my destiny?’
“You are a man plagued by those two words...what if” (the time machine).
We hope, that by understanding destiny and choice that somehow we can out smart pain, loss, hurt. But it doesn’t work like that. The more we try and understand, the more confused we get because it is not for us to understand. Just to know.
Right now it feels like my whole life is in limbo. I’m frustrated by standing still. And even though I’m a little afraid of moving forward I want to. I try and push and move, but life just tells me “SIT STILL, don’t move, your time will come”. I know I should enjoy this time, but there is a nagging feeling, ‘am i missing something by standing still?’
But if you are not in control of your destiny, why do you think that by moving you can hurry it along?
Sometimes I’m such a know-it-all, that I want punch my own face.
Let life happen....good or bad, all is as it should be. My job is to arrive prepared!